At first, I wasn’t sure I was going to post these boudoir photos from my 41st birthday a few weeks ago. I didn’t love the way my body looked, and the mood and editing are different, darker than my usual portrait style. You see, after my 40th birthday last year, I decided I’d make it a tradition to do an annual boudoir shoot just for me.
My first birthday boudoir shoot was when I turned the big 4-0 last year. I absolutely LOVED this new chapter, my body, and I felt confident and empowered when I posed for the boudoir shoot. What changed this year that I feel a little down, you ask? I don’t really have one exact answer. Maybe I’m just PMSing? Anyway, in between booking some aerial yoga classes (for fun mostly, but also fitness), I realized that self-acceptance, being happy, “not giving a damn” about what people think can be very threatening to people. (And you know I don’t ordinarily give two f*cks about what people think lol!) People can’t understand it. It unnerves them. They will judge it. But that is not a problem of mine, nor yours. It is simply, theirs to have. Noone knows your journey.
We all have something about ourselves we do not like. But, we rarely ask ourselves where it comes from – and that’s what I’m digging into this year of my life, 41 trips around the sun. Self-acceptance is a journey. For me, the birthday boudoir shoot offers a new realization each year. I dedicate it to my personal growth and progress. I dedicate it to feeling proud to be strong and feminine. I dedicate it to my clients, to show them it is entirely okay. And this makes me smile… HARD.
Age is just a number, and it is also a rebirth. It’s an occasion to realize and appreciate who you are and who you are becoming. And I hope to continue these discoveries each year. Are you with me, ladies?
Hope you enjoy my 41st birthday boudoir shoot, I know it’s growing on me!